Truth.

So, it is time to be a bit real. I touched on it a bit with my last blog post, but I feel I owe it to my friends and supporters to be honest.

My time here in California has been hard. Very hard.  From night one at the Sheraton, I thought the room was very tight, and I initially wondered how in the world I would function in a room that cluttered. Sure, it was “accessible,” but that was mainly on paper only. Seriously. I could not even access the fridge in the room; I couldn’t really go a day without tripping over something. Being in a room that cramped truly was affecting my capabilities of caring for myself, as I have so done for my entire life.

I have fallen every day here. That wears on a person after a while. It has been hard to focus on my projects with JAF and C4L because the mucky-ness of what I was dealing with outside of the office was truly overshadowing everything else.

Every night, I have issued tearful, prayerful pleas to Jesus. He knows every issue that I have dealt with. I have prayed for a better arrangement, because I was, in fact, miserable.

I really had no expectations for this experience.  But, at the same time, I did not envision any of this.

Like I said, it has been hard.

God is faithful. God is sovereign. He has been my sustainer, and He has heard my every prayer.

I am now in The Hampton Inn. The room is leaps and BOUNDS better. I can maneuver. I can finally rest well, and perform better at work. I have definitely found my niche and rhythm. I am doing great and helpful things. I am blogging for Kids’ Corner. I am drafting Q&As for the website, (and let me tell you, when you don’t particularly HAVE questions, it is hard to probe questions!) and drafting a year’s worth of tips to go on a children’s day calendar. It’s been great.

But here is the rub.

I have three weeks left of this amazing, once in a lifetime, opportunity. This spacious, dream-come-true, answer to prayer of a room is more costly than where I was. I have two options: 1. I fundraise the amount that has been unexpectedly incurred, ($3,000) or, 2. I can pack my things and head home early.

I don’t want to come home. Not yet. I have prayerfully considered these options, and I still believe within my heart of hearts, and with every fiber of my being…that I am supposed to be here, and that my work is not finished yet. I know this because God saw to it that this place at the Hampton opened up.

So, I ask you to pray that this need will be met. God is bigger than any problem. I know that my God is a God of miracles, and that is what is needed. I am in need of funds, but I am in need of prayer. If you can be an angel mercy in this time of need, that would be greatly appreciated.

As always, thank you all for your continued love, support and prayers. I couldn’t be here without you, and I truly thank God for each of you…

Grace and Peace,

Julie-Anne

Let us hold fast the confession of our hope without wavering, for He who promised is faithful. 

Hebrews 10:23